Dear Puys,
Sorry for this long and irrelevant post on this sacred thread of achievers and winners. This is not a success story, as you might have guessed from the starting lines, but another rant from an underdog. I did not want to post this here, but I was sure that if there was a place where I could garner some much needed motivation in this hour of distress, it was this thread. I know there would be a lot of other people with similar story as mine, I hope my post here helps them as well to come to grips with the grim situation we find ourselves in.
So here I am, sitting in front of my laptop typing this loser’s story, of how I failed to convert my most important calls even after securing a decent percentile and giving good interviews. It just couldn’t get better than this. MDI(WL), NITIE(Reject), SJMSOM(Reject), IIM Shillong(Reject), NMIMS(WL) – The list just grows bigger each passing day. The only converts that I can boast of at this point of time is VGSoM and IIT M. But then, after having secured a 98.80 in CAT, and having appeared year after year after year just to get a chance to walk in the hallowed corridors of the most coveted management institutes of the country, I am just not able to accept the fact that I have to settle down with a VGSoM(not that I am demeaning this institute in any way, it’s just that I had set bigger and better ambitions for myself). To top it all, I am counting the last few days in my organization. And with my work experience touching 3.5 years now, I had decided to take the plunge this year come what may. Of course, I was confident, given the fact that I had a lot of calls, and barring a couple of them, I had good interviews in all of the others, with my ideas and points of view being appreciated as well, in some of them. Reject – was something which was just unexpected. Waiting for another year to take CAT again seems idiotic, since even if I do bag a better percentile next year, the number of rejects I’ve been bestowed with this year scares the daylights out of me.
So at this point-of-no-return, I find myself petrified, stupefied, muddled and embarrassed, without a morsel of an idea as to how to go about my future from hereon. Should I join VGSoM and forget about my dreams? Should I take up another job and take CAT again next year? Should I wait for MDI wait list to clear? Should I just pull up my socks and go all guns blazing for FMS, which I am still not sure I’ll get a call from? These questions have been haunting me ever since last night, when SJMSOM released its shortlist and was a final nail in the coffin of my aspirations.
Sorry to bore you all with the humbug posted here, but I do feel much better after having penned down and shared my feelings with you all. My anger needed an outlet, and this one was just perfect. I don’t know what I am going to do now, I have no idea. Thankfully, I have a lot of support from my parents and friends, because of which I am still in the right spirits. Time is the best healer they say – So I guess i’ll just take a break from all this and not think about anything at all.
PG has always been a great support. Although I am not very active as many of the others are, I have always followed the happenings/developments/conversations very religiously. I’ve made quite a few friends as well, in the process. I’m quite sure their prayers and belief in my abilities will help me somewhere and sometime. Till then, all I can do is just hope.