As this is supposed to be the concluding part of the story. I will try to get to the point pretty quickly.
As I mentioned earlier that I failed in my last 2 attempts at CAT, still I was ashamed to call myself as quitter.
I had the persistence of Saddam Hussein.
But my greatest fear was that the next person meeting me would ask me what happened to my CAT results and I wouldn’t have any answers.
The support my father put up with during that phase of my life was inestimable.
He became my moral support to while I chewed through concrete and nails, trying to make sure I live up to the standard the next time.
When I decided to appear for CAT again in 2011, I can’t tell you how many people advised me to give up and some of them were actually right which I realize now.
Did that hit me like a ton of bricks ?
No, not at that time.
Actually it slowly melted its way down through my mind like a hot steel metal block on a frozen lake.
But I decided to give CAT anyways.
A couple of months back, I saw one of my friends status update after getting admit into one of the IIMs in his 4th attempt. It read like this
All you have to do is hang in there… And wait.. Wait for your time to come…
And as soon as I read it , this feeling hit me like a point blank straight in the face. I choked back my tears. I remembered vivid flashbacks, recollections of my own huge stone of failure, frustration and agony which used to haunt me in the night.
I could relate. I had been on the verge of tears many times myself when others used to give me that advice, “You just need to study little harder ” “You just need more focus” and I couldn’t stand looking in the mirror, knowing that I had nothing to show for the last three years of my efforts, money, knowing I was no further ahead than my comatose friends who were just happy in their jobs, getting inebriated on every weekends,watching movies on Saturday nights and hanging out with their girlfriends.
On the day of the exam, I was much more relaxed than everybody else at the center as if I knew the outcome.
I gave CAT with absolutely no expectations.
I was a little bit anxious on the day of actual results.
But I finally mustered the courage to see it after talking to my closest friend. As I was putting my details on the website, I was feeling the rush of excitement through my whole body, anxiety spreading its legs through my chest, my palms started to sweat, I started feeling uneasy in my chest area and as I saw my results,due to sheer nervousness or excitement, my mind went completely blank.
In the final installment, you will know what happened.
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