I don’t know what had pushed me to ask her that.
“What are you talking about?” she was obviously surprised and her tone attested that.
“I fell for you (pause)… I love you,” I was confessing without committing any crime.
(Silence…)
It felt like everything surrounding us fell silent. She didn’t utter a single word and deep within I had already started regretting.
“Never ever expect any answer from me,” said Suhasi who was sitting in the back seat of my bike.
This was one of the few sentences she had spoken since the moment I proposed to her.
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(Years Later)
Sunday, 3 October
I had almost forgotten that I used to write diary. It has been around three years and it’s good that Diwali-safaai has brought something nice back into my memory. I just have gone through all the pages and laughing out loud. I was silly.
Suhasi is right when she said that there was a time when I was crazy for her.
I had left my diary incomplete. So let me complete the story. There is a long works-still-to-be-done list waiting for me so I can’t elaborate everything the way I used to.
I don’t know from where I should start. Ok…
I and Suhasi didn’t talk for days. I almost ignored her. I was embarrassed because even after being given a word of caution I crossed all sort of lines of foolishness and proposed to her. Days were passed and piled up to make months.
Akshat had now become Suhasi’s good friend. Unexpectedly, it was he who bridged the communication gap.
Formal conversations with her were started all over again. I had deleted her number. There was a reason.
One day I was so drunk (yes, my short stint of drinking had started in 2nd year) that I was on the brink of sending her a long love letter. We Engineers do most of the blunders when drunk. But somehow I controlled myself and deleted her number instead so that nothing could persuade me to commit the same mistake I did a year ago.
Hi, bye, occasional how are you went on for more than a year. There were rumors that there was something cooking between Akshat and Suhasi but it was too late for me to care about these things. I used to talk to Suhasi just like a mutual friend. Then one day it all changed.
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