Giving all the commotion going on in my mind a sudden halt, I tried to contemplate on the minute details which are missed out in a last few days. Why I am finding myself alone is the most indispensable query I need to solve. Am I missing something? Am I not doing the things which I love to do? Or am I expecting too much from people? I opine that the last reason is the answer to my questions. I am not much demanding, neither I like bogus flattery nor I am an attention seeker. I am not saying that I am an immaculate girl whom everybody would like to emulate, but the point is that at this moment I am utterly aggrieved at all the circumstances around me. Nothing is wrong or unwonted but I am frustrated by this ennui in my lifestyle. I never covet a very spicy life but I am certainly ensnared in a monotonous schedule. Moreover the presence of naysayers invariably aggravates the situation. How do I get rid of them, and specifically when they all are my cronies? I just don’t understand what joy these sadist enjoy in debilitating me. God! Their innuendos on my incapability and failures fall like lava on me. Why they want to test my patience? It’s my life; let me live it on my terms. Their interference proves to be horrendous for me.
We all have gone atleast once from this state of mind. Actually, we are sick of constricting ourselves from heeding our predilections. We are tired of being cooped up in the cage of limits. Not only the limits this society or people have set for us, but also the limits we have fabricated ourselves as the repercussions of our journey through all the traumas. We are entrapped in the labyrinth of histrionics and fulsome talks. We have to free ourselves from the shackles of duplicitous horde. We don’t have to wear this straitjacket of canons anymore. Everyone admire those fellows who are nonchalant and carefree. At least, their influence is never inimical. Damn! Why we are not like them? We can’t figure out what is thwarting us on our way to this liberty. Maybe we are yearning ample of things in a farrago. We should try not to be punctilious anymore. Unleashing our minds from the manacles of saturnine thoughts and guiding it to take a ride with the heart would be a better remedy. Clearing our mind of all the ambivalent thoughts is of paramount importance at the moment. We do not possess the faculty to entertain everyone (neither we want to!). Howsoever hard one may try, one cannot make everyone happy, and it’s as simple as that. People have to compromise like we do for them. So, be nice; but not at the cost of not being yourself!